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THE GOLDEN GIRL

 

By Natasha Shkoda

Natasha Shkoda lives in Edinburgh, Scotland, UK.  She moved to the UK from Ukraine eight years ago. She has written poetry and prose all her life and in three languages. Already, she has written and continues to write numerous short stories.   Currently, Natasha is working on her first novel.

 

 

 

 

 

     I looked at myself in the mirror, then smiled. No, not quite like that. It should be a different smile. I tried again. That’s it! That’s my perfect smile. Open and confident. Radiant and a little bit cheeky. OK, try again…

     After good ten minutes of practising I felt I could put that smile on my face any time. I smiled again – this time naturally, feeling very satisfied with the results of my training. Good for you, girl, I said to myself. Way to go…

     A perfect smile was only the last touch to the picture, in addition to a perfect dress, perfect hair style and a perfect make-up. I was going to the wedding. Trouble was, my best friend Laura was coming, too…

     If you knew exactly what it was like, having Laura as a best friend, you would understand me better. No, nothing was wrong with Laura. And that where trouble was – there was nothing wrong with Laura. Never. Not a thing. She was a picture of perfection. Almost ridiculously good-looking, charming, good-natured, successful.    She wasn’t even vain, like you would expect a very beautiful girl to be – well, maybe she was, but to an extent. And she was intelligent, too. And generous. Indeed, sometimes I admired her the way I would admire a work of art, not a person. I wasn’t even jealous – not at those moments.

     But sometimes I was. Out of the two of us, it was Laura who got all the male attention. Showing her kindness, she tried to introduce me to some friends of her numerous admirers, but it somehow never worked. I can’t say none of them liked me – I just wasn’t much interested in those who did, and if I really liked somebody, they most definitely preferred Laura.

     But tonight things are going to be different. I will definitely not be in Laura’s shadow any more. Not in this dress, on which I spent quite a handsome sum of money. It was worth every penny though. It was more than perfect – it was magic. It made my slim waist look even thinner, and my full bust looked splendid in it. As for my hips, a bit wider than desirable – well, the dress somehow took inches off them. And its colour was perfect too, and suited me marvellously. Golden colour. Just perfect.

     My hairdo could also be described as perfect. The money I paid to the top stylist wasn’t wasted. For some reason, I’ve never tried to tie my hair up before. Now it was obvious that this style suited me most. It made my face look more enigmatic, or so the stylist said. That’s why I had to practise a new smile – an enigmatic smile that would give my entire face a new expression. And now, the mission of creating a new me was finally accomplished. I smiled again. The next important detail of the plan was trying to stay away from Laura, as opposed to following her like a shadow, which I used to do before. Not any more. I was going to be my own girl at that wedding. A golden girl…

     First it seemed to have worked perfectly. The wedding ceremony was marvellous. A dashing bride in her ivory dress was radiating a special beauty – the beauty all the brides in the world sparkled with, the bridal beauty. A proud and happy bridegroom, laughing and bubbly bridesmaids, charming little flower girls and pageboys… And Laura. Laura was beautiful as always, but my golden dress was also noticed at once. Out of all the ingredients of my new look, it was my dress that was first to attract attention. And then it was my new hairdo. And then it was a spark in my eyes. Well, the latter was mentioned by some male guests, including the bride’s father, who has always been a ladies’ man, or so the rumours reported. Well, I couldn’t boast the compliments from representatives of the opposite sex that Laura got, despite of turning up with her new boyfriend, but it was just the beginning. I lacked the experience, you see. The smile I tortured my mirror with – oh yeah, it was my perfect smile, but it wasn’t Laura’s special smile. I didn’t know what was in that smile, but there was definitely something, because nine men of ten were quite unable to get their eyes off her face.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 

     Damn it, I had to learn to smile like that! I had to! I had to shine brighter than Laura, to come out of her shadow, or… Or end any relationship with her! Oh no, I couldn’t do that either. Laura was a perfect role model. I had to be around her at least to learn. I had to learn to walk like her as well, and…

     “Excuse me, please…”

     That was a voice behind my back. A male voice. I could hardly hear the words – they didn’t matter, because I heard the voice. It was low and soft, velvety soft. It enveloped me like a tender wave. I didn’t hear it – I felt it.

I turned over and… stopped breathing. My heart missed a beat… Two beats… Three beats… Then it galloped like a runaway horse. First it was the voice, and now… Now there were the eyes. The eyes of the colour I haven’t seen before, the colour of ocean. First a tender wave of the voice. Now the ocean of eyes… I drowned. I completely drowned.

     Suddenly, the rays of sunshine sparked in the ocean. Its owner smiled.

     “A beautiful dress. A colour of gold, but it’s a warm gold”. He smiled again. “I’m sorry to bother you like that”.

     I slowly realised I had to say something back.

     “Eh… It’s OK. You… You are not bothering me”.

     He spoke again. This voice. Dear God… This voice!

     “I’m sorry…” I mumbled. “What… What did you say?”

     As if it mattered! The only thing that mattered was the fact he spoke to me. And his voice.

     He smiled again.

     “I asked for your name”.

     “Sorry, I… I didn’t realize. Yeah, my name is Naomi Walters”.

     “Naomi... It’s a beautiful name. Unusual. It suits you a lot”.

     Voice. Eyes. Smile.

     “I am Dan Pixton. You know, I thought it wouldn’t be too impudent if I asked you for a favour”.

     A favour? Me – for a favour?

     “I really don’t know anyone here, apart from the groom – he invited me. But he is very obviously preoccupied with other things”. He smiled again, while I tried to stop my heart from hammering through my ribs. “So, would you mind us sitting at the same table at the reception? We could... You know, talk”.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
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